I can't do without you,

I dont know how to express this feeling within me. No words can explain just how much it hurts, how much it kills. I dont want to lose you I seriously dont. I can't take another blow especially one thats so terribly hard. Everytime I see couples together it'd remind me of you. They are so engrossed with each other, they dont know I'm looking. Out in the park alone at night, all I could do is cry. Cry till I fall, drink till I can't take no more. I dont know what I'll be without you. You taught me alot of things indirectly. There are many things on my mind I want you to know. So many more hangouts I want to go with you. Its been lingering on my mind for quite a while I 've been keeping it to myself. If this continues, I'll break down. I will. I want to let you know you're everything to me. This fact isn't going to change, I love you.