When everything turns out wrong,

I'll be there...

This post is dedicated just to you Zining hun. Heard about what happened to you recently, please do not lose hope. This might be a test for both of you and him to see if this relationship is strong. If it is, I'm sure no one can break the both of you. The pain you went through today is probably one of the factors in the test. Yet, you didn't just give up on the spot. You held on. Problems will pop here and there now and again but I know you're up for the challenge. You both will pull through this hard time now. If anything were to happen, dont forget I'm just a call away. Call/text me, you know I'll definitely be there. Please don't be angry at them, cheerup alright.

Tell the heart not to feel that way,

Someday, we'll all learn to let go. I'm trying...

Slightest mistake,

I've seriously been dreading to blog for quite some time. Finally, with the naggings of Claire and some motivation by afew of you I managed to sign into blogger and here I'm typing! I shall go alll the way backkkkkkkkkkk to last saturday for a start.

Headed to town, shopping all alone previous saturday. Christmas lightings were extremely beautiful! Sadly, due to my forgetfulness I forgot to bring my phone resulting to zero pictures. Met Tiffany and Jaslyn at Wisma Topshop. Managed to catch up quite a bit at Starbucks. Go out together soon ok! Went out with yt as usual to collect and give out stuffs on monday and some stuff happened. I would prefer not to disclose. Anyway, I shall take it as an experience, quite an unexperience blogshop owner I should say. Wasted hell alot of time. Afternoon during christmas eve was spent with Shi hui. Trained to town>bugis>town>bishan. Both burnt pocket that day! Night was spent at Clarke Quay with cousins and relatives. Christmas day, spent with Elaine! Spent night before at her place, had heart to heart talk. Missed those old childhood days! Watched twilight yesterday afternoon, and I swear Edward Cullen is the hottest shit ever! Seriously can't wait for Twilight2. Gonna watch it with Yt, steady ah! Night spent at Wisma with Claire hun. Went to repair phone, service was seriously bad! Can't stop laughing at the way Claire argued with the lady. Old hag eh! Whole afternoon spent at AMK HUB today with Elaine, family, her family, and 2 aunts of ours. Hours of conversations held outside the arcade, back to the old days. Haha! They came over for dinner at my place, and all parted at 8pm.

Miraculously I realised,

So much for a chalet on my birthday! Haha. I truly enjoyed myself with those people who went.
Day 1: Wildwildwet, the rides were alright. But some of the thrills were great. Oh bbq. The food part, omg. I found it most enjoyable! Hahaha! Eat and eat and eat. I bet now I've gain 3kg and have become a big fat elephant alright. Spent the night gambling away, and no doubt I've not earn any profit yet I made double loses! Thanks to the lucky guy Vincent! He won practically all of our money. Seriously just his day that night.

Day 2: I woke up first although I was the last to sleep that night! I only had 4 hours of sleep. Boohoo. I realised dearest had eye bags in the morning! Heheh, but i didn't mention. Managed to drag "someone" out of his bed to play monopoly in the early morning. Guess what, Vincent won our money fr that day too. Managed to get back some, but lost all due to bowling. Sad case huh.
Around noon, Zining came to find me! Then both of us including dearest bus-ed to Whitesands. Snapped pics at pretty pixs. Had to rush back to chalet aft, so met Genevieve at interchange to get my prezzie and dearest and I headed back. I'll make it up to both of you k! Went back, helped with the bbq. Brought back supper for the guys. Again, money came out of my pocket, broke a hole there. Slept at 3am.

Day 3: Struggled to get out of the bed. Checked out of chalet. Plans changed, dearest and the guys went to escape first, while I headed for tuition. Joined them around 1pm. Haunted house has got me sleeping with lights on these few nights. Thanks to Vincent and Chris who added on and scared me out of my wits k! Rides were alright. Very few rides, Inverted was fantastic. On there 4 times. Evening, headed home.

Lost usb cable=No pics.
http://at-least-was-loved.blogspot.com/ for a few pics.

More than I can ask,

A very very wonderful day indeed. To sum it all up, I enjoyed myself today. Thank you girls!
Luv you both x100000000000000000000000000.
Now let the pictures do the talking.

Happy Halloween!

Nothing special this Halloween due to some stuff that happened recently. Sorry Claire luv! I swear I'd definitely make this up to you alright. Fights broke out in the wee hours this morning,
I pray that the three of you will have a speedy recovering. I'm glad everything has been settled, most of the problems have subsided.

Chalet this thursday to Saturday. Text me if you wanna come.

Heart beat,

Wednesday was a trip with the girls to Hsm 3 at golden village at j8. Met at 12pm at Pizza Hut, then Arcade. The movie only started at 2pm. The show was absoutely fab. Great day with the 4 girlies! Yesterday was out with one of my closests. She came over at 10am, and we started the day with stupid jokes she made. She says my nagging is a hardcore killer! Oh my gosh, haha! Swensons was on her? You wished! She gave out the items to some buyers or sort and by the time she came back, I've finished my lunch . Trained to CityHall to get some stuff and then back to our usual place. Went back my place first to put own all the things and bus-ed back to j8 to meet my Genevieve and Zining. Catch up a bit, and then they headed back to Whitesands. Went back and closest and I watched tv till she was late for another meetup! Then we both headed home.

And i swear Lim Zining has gotten all my love! (L)

Pics for HSM 3 with girlies:

Gone,

I dont want to lose another great friend like you. Although we aren't called "best friends" we did share videos of memories together. One that would put smiles and laughters to those who watches. Yet the slighest smallest mistake would cut the line and stop everything. I searched high and low for the slighest clue that caused this damage. And it was all because of jealousy and greed I apologise for that. What you did yet was you insulted my parents and all those words that you wrote shows you're no better. And now you're even saying things indirectly not to me, but to your very own best friend. I dont think she suck up to me, or what other hurtful words you use. Do you know you actually hurt her feelings? You dont! I've been going out very frequently with her, so what? I really dont see a need to create such a big fuss, and a bad atmosphere for all. Yes, I'm willing to forgive and forget but you took advantage of it. Did the law state a rule that best friends must be with each other everytime? Do they need to go everywhere with each other? I've got a best friend too, and I understand how you're feeling when you see your best friend with some other friends going out together, happily with each other. I had the same experience just 1 or 2 months back? But please do understand, I wont steal your best friend away alright. Please do wake up from your childish idea of that.

Fate brought us together, yet it drew us apart. Something so close, yet so far. I wonder why...

Everlasting,

Went out with Elaine, Jiaxin, Bryan and Glenn this afternoon. Headed to cineleisure to catch a show but the timings werent on our side. Elaine suggested Bugis so we accompained her there.
Saw many people, managed to catch up with Alicia since our last outing together. Went seperate ways as Elaine jiaxin and i headed to Clarke Quay , had party there and 9.30pm homed.
No pictures due to loss of battery today.
(A few days back, others is still in Shihui's phone!)

Monthsary,

Hi love,

As I recall all our memories of us so close in the past, it puts a smile on my face. I'm glad we're like what we were back then and that its not history. In life some things comes and go and its good we've closed the gap between us after being seperated for 2 long years. We studied together, went out together, bought shared problems together, tell each other secrets. As close as bestfriends, like moon and sky. You always made everything alright, you laughter always make my day. I hope our friendship will last, at least for another few more years or even better forever. Happy 2nd Monthsary Shi hui!

Monthsary,

Happy Belated 5th Monthsary Rianna!

I know I always make you angry and sad for all the silly things I do. But you should know, during this 5 months our friendship grows deeper and deeper each day. I thank you for everything you've done especially when you always have to bear with my bad temper. I seriously thank god i have such a good friend like you. I have Shihui and my other friends but I sense that there's a special bond between us, something no one other than you could give me. Good luck in everything you do alright my smart girl. You can do it or actually you've done it for this year!

I can't do without you,

I dont know how to express this feeling within me. No words can explain just how much it hurts, how much it kills. I dont want to lose you I seriously dont. I can't take another blow especially one thats so terribly hard. Everytime I see couples together it'd remind me of you. They are so engrossed with each other, they dont know I'm looking. Out in the park alone at night, all I could do is cry. Cry till I fall, drink till I can't take no more. I dont know what I'll be without you. You taught me alot of things indirectly. There are many things on my mind I want you to know. So many more hangouts I want to go with you. Its been lingering on my mind for quite a while I 've been keeping it to myself. If this continues, I'll break down. I will. I want to let you know you're everything to me. This fact isn't going to change, I love you.

Long lonely nights,

As each day passes by, I realise I ain't that strong after all. I wasn't even strong in the first place. I put a strong front infront of others with endless laughters, a smile so bright it could hide denial. Yet behind the scenes, I cry so hard no one could ever believe. Can't take it any longer, I'll surrender.

a little more luck,

Tuesday, Wednesday:
Great accompaniment from Rianna, Shi hui, Sally, Trina, Naomi.

Thursday:
Learning journey trip to Singapore River.
Perfect, yet disasterous. Inner words can't explain.

Friday:
Laughters filled the air, yet many still didn't understand the intention of others.
What were their real motive? I seriously doubt their actions and words are real.

Saturday:
Far East Plazza, Bugis.










Distance wont drift us apart for our hearts are tied together. I'm glad I met you, please dont ever go Gen Soon.

Gotten off track,

I'll do anything for you stay, no matter what it takes.
We'll make it through, our love will never die.
Though it feels like the end, I'll be there. I swear.

Monday:

Greatest love,

I wont make it on my own,

I miss you, I seriously do.
Hurt me like it hurt you,
I wanna know if you feel the same way too.
Greatest strength: Cheryl Lim and Shi hui.
Thanks for keeping me going on, all these while. When I needed someone, you'all are always there.

Met Shi hui at mrt at 11.30am. The swensons' breakfast was something whipped to get the day started. Haha! We were talking about hair, Shi will get what I mean.
Then she accompained me to get some stuff, and we trained down to City Hall.
Walked the whole Marina and then took the linkway to Suntec City. Snapped alot of unglammed photos which got us laughing for hours okay! Got my cartoon hoodie from the buyer and we trained to T3 next. There was even funnier! We walked the whole of T3 and realised we were walking in circles! Snapped more pics and then we went to T2, and had burger king. 6pm, headed to bishan and bidded goodbye.

P/S:I can't find my god damn cable!

Part of me now and forever,

Pillar of strength: Cheryl Lim, Shi hui, Claire, Bryan, Zining, Genevieve, Tiffany.
Have you ever felt a pierce through your heart? Yet you can still continue? Cause I know, you're the one, you'll be my everlasting.

Finally its over, geez. English was okay, and math was a disasterous though I did put in alot of effort in it. Why make sec 1 kids have lack of brain cells due to that? F, why set such hard paper? Went out with the girls Shi hui, Vanessa, and Naomi right after. They are absoutely great okay, especially Shi! They spent the whole afternoon with me mostly going to places I requested. Heheh. I owe you guys a meal next time okay! Took off the extensions at bugis and shopped. I met Zining and Cheryl there by coincidence! I miss those girls like there's no tomorrow. Trained all the way to town. Shi wanted to go far east but in the end, nothing much. slacked there. They were dead beat tired cause of me! Haha. Then to Amk hub, they accompained me for a hair cut.
I'm going to stick to it meanwhile.

Game over,

Spent the weekends with Tiffany, Bryan, and Cheryl. Went to meet them straight after tuition on saturday. We didn't do much though, catch up on alot of stuffs. Around 5, went to Elaine's house for bbq with jiaxin. I thought about all the things that happened recently, looked back and wondered what would be the outcome if we did things differently, if we thought about each other's perspective in different views, outcomes. But its too late.

4 papers down, 2 more to go. Some of the literature and history questions seriously got me struggling to recall all the notes I've memorised. Science paper seemed okay, Chinese was seriously rubbish. Sigh, its all the last minute work to blame. English should be easy peezy, i hope..

Happiness dont last forever,

Life's bound to ups and downs,
thrills and spills.
Love ain't a game baby,
please dont take it like one.
Life's been shit all these days, but still I'm glad
I have Shi hui by my side these few months.
Thank you so much bestfriend!

I really regretted not studying earlier for this end of year exams.
All these last minute study isn't helping at all.
Today's science and literature was tough,
but at last i made it through.
Went for lunch and library with Shi hui and Rianna.
Like expected, play before work.
Headed home, after.

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